i can't say welcome march!!!

blogwalking, soc-net-walking
almost everyone has "welcome march" there...

so it wouldn't be cool having those words too :))

so this is my first trash in 2012...
(me: abandoning my own blog, #pukpuk-the-blog)

a lot things happen for the last year...

those chats, still waiting that for...mmmm

i've been go abroad... my elementary-school-dreams, come true...

see... that's why people said "carefull with what you wish for"
i never really imagine the real me going somewhere outside this country.

i just ever said, i'd like to go to japan someday, or uk, well australia will be fine...

i didn't go to those countries...but someday i will ^_^

and about a thing, i almost give up...
in a normal condition, i would never, ever, will do such a thing

but look what i've done...

if this doesn't work, i' probably called myself as mmm...

i hope i'll never feel sorry about this

#cheersss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

d.o.n.e t.r.a.s.h.i.n.g

move, move, move

Sudah berkali-kali mau posting dengan judul ini, tp ternyata nggak bisa2...

Tapi akhirnya diposting juga, but... with different purpose...

Yup, awalnya, judul itu bakal digunakan untuk mengumumkan I'M MOVING, won't writing, mumbling or other -ing(s) in here anymore...

But can't...

Sudah coba lebih dari satu (pastinya) tempat, tapi semuanya berakhir dengan hanya 2-3 postingan, and that's it... hanya sampai di situ aja :D

I'm not good starting something new in a new palce, thought...
So, here I am, back in here...
Ready to trash again...

lima sentimeter

-dreams.faith.fight-

pic-nya minjam dr blog sang pengarang

Iyaaa...baru baca (doh)

Ga tau kenapa pengarang bisa ngasih judul 5 cm itu. Ga tau sampai akhirnya selesai baca bab 9 -fiuh-

Suka petualangannya mereka, jadi tambah pengen ke jogja (yup, ke jogja aja dulu, ga usah sampai ke Mahameru, ga ada temannya, ga ada waktunya, ga yakin bisa :D )

Maybe someday I'll be there. Jadi ingat klo lagi dalam perjalanan pulang dari atau pergi ke Jakarta, dari atas, kalau sudah di tanah Jawa, lihat gunung, tinggi sendiri, apa mungkin itu Mahameru yak?!?!

Anyway rencana-rencana jalan-jalan yang dulu mungkin sudah disusun atau baru akan disusun, kayaknya hanya bakal jadi rencana hiks... too late probably.

Suka quotes dan lirik-lirik lagu di buku ini. Begitu ketemu ma lirik lagu, bukannya dibaca, malah dinyanyikan (music).
I just love the songs.

"Bukan untuk Genta, bukan untuk Dinda, bukan untuk Riani, bukan untuk Zafran"

Agak ga suka dengan endingnya. Bukan karena Genta-nya suka Riani, Riani-nya suka Zafran, Zafran-nya suka Dinda, Dinda-nya suka Genta (I just knew it), tapi karena quote itu, kata "bukan" itu... even endingnya, yah...happy ending.

Yang buat terharu...
Bukan, ... bukan surat Denik buat temannya (secara keseluruhan), tapi kejadian di stasiun Lempuyangan dan satu kalimat di surat Denik...

"Still waiting for your postcard from Heaven"

Now I miss people (sad)


Inspiring book???
Ga juga...
Encourage, probably...
A wake up calling...
Or whatever its name...

Mencoba memberitahukan kalau saya harus tetap bermimpi, mengusahakan mimpi-mimpi itu terwujud, and keep what i've got, tightly...

Seperti kata-kata pembuka di blog pengarang...

Dear Dreamers!

(and if you allowed me to add more words)

Keep dreaming!!!

(with extra exclamation point, off course)

my 1st trashing, i just need to become: ME

a year…it's been a year

so what have happened???Nothing, really nothing…
(kecuali nih blog berganti nama, really, nothing have happened)

masih sering bad mood g jelas, banget…
kuliah g selesai, nyesal…
masih sering nanya2 kenapa begini, kenapa begitu #bukankuisditv

the last good thing has happened to me is… finally i watched a concert #yippy!!!!!
It was secondhand serenade's and i was in the 2nd row.
my 1st concert was awesome… can't hardly wait for the next adventure…

John Vesely and cute Ryan Cook xixixixi

dapat voucher cisco…tp tampaknya bakal direlakan saja

sekarang saya merangkap 3 agen lho #yangjelasbukanagenpulsa :p
the newest one, eh two, jadi agen tiket + agen roti girl boy.
keseringan lewat gambir, jadi banyak yang bisa dititipin…

ok, let's not talk about jobs #daripadastress

i've got my own Mac!!!!!!! Finally!!!!!! (dance) #yippiyyippyyeyyey

question: why bother spending money for that-something-called-open-source based?!?!?
answer: i never intend to buy that-something-called-open-source based, wrong question...
untung penghasilan g besar, coba klo iya… i'm truly will become a freakin gadget freak, double freaks!!! #masihbersyukurthatimnotanapplefreaks,willcostalot

telinga bermasalah lagi… infeksi sodara-sodara… and the treatments, cost a sennheiser studio/dj headphones

#gatausoundnyasebagusapa,tapipastinyalebihnendangdaripadahd202
miss my db acoustics… hd202 ga bisa gantiin… yang baru ini cuma nendang bassnya, berasa di studio tapi detailnya kebanyakan ketutup, definitely not suitable for listening AVA.

ga mau lg lebaran ga di rumah sendiri…lebaran di kantor dulu sumpah masih mending bgt #untungtahundepandahpunyacuti

ok, no resolution for last year, neither this year…
i'm still the same freaking person…
busy with my own gadget, my own thoughts, my own, myself, in the corner...
i'm still not good dealing with people…
i hate myself when i'm still trying being that outspoken-person and etc that have the same meanings with that, which i'm definitely not #somebody,stopmefromhumiliatingmyself…

a big year for some of my friends… have a wonderful new life for you all…
ah…g kerasa baru tahun lalu chatting2 ga jelas malam2… akhirnya…you do great pal #semogabisanyusulsecepatnyaxixixixi,harusnyakemarinmintadidoainmadia,hmmm...

kyk sinetron jadinya...eh kerenan dikit, opera sabun film ala amrik himym hjntiy… (with a different ending of course)

ribut BB vs kemkominfo, untung saya nggak pake hehehe… do whatever they want lah klo gini xixixi
mau ganti hape, android aja?!?!? (lumayan game-nya bisa bikin autis klo lagi bad mood) or tetap pake soner flip…
i luv flip, i fall for soner...


trashing…done.

...Complaining...

I'm trying to not doing that thing.
But most of the time, it's as hard as not breathing.
You can hold for a few seconds, then, no matter what, you did breathed at last...

It's relieving
After doing it, it feels lighter.
Not solved the problems, but it keeps me sober.

Then I read these sentences (thanks for some1 @fb who mentioned it):

When life hits you hard, don't complain.
Cry out loud, curse, but don't complain.
You are not a victim.

(Paulo Coelho)

Now, it's a little bit hard for me to not comparing between complain and curse.
Admit it, when you curse, means you are complaining.

Crying out loud probably the best solution for now...
It's as relieving as...

So I'm trying, from now on, to not complaining.
But every time you see me crying, it doesn't mean I'm complaining.

lets get lost!!!

akhir2 ini sering liat+dengar kata2 itu...
so here i am, totally lost

for the last few months i guess.... feels like im not "me"
gals+guys, sorry for not replying your texting
sorry for not calling back
sorry for being stingy lately...

it just i dun wanna hear anything rite now
dun wanna feel anything rite now...

step away from all of you for a while probably the only + best way for me rite now...

im not being a good friends today, hopefully only for today

damn

morning all...

pagi ini g tau mo ngapain, bangun cepat g seperti biasanya (g seperti biasanya waktu masih di mks, g seperti biasanya waktu masih kul+ker, g seperti biasanya seperti beberapa bulan yang lalu).

bangun pagi buat membiasakan kebiasaan yang 10 hari belakangan menjadi kebiasaan (yaaahh... ngomongnya dah aneh...), dengan harapan hasilnya sesuai dengan harapan wkwkwkwk.

anw tentunya buat hidup sehat dan membuang jauh2 kebiasaan malas bangun pagi. efek negatifnya, back to my ordinary life (from that 10-days-only-life), habis bangun, sa g tau mo ngapain...spechless iya, mati gaya iya, bosan iya, dun-know-what-to-do iya.

sa dah g pernah update status di fb lagi, cuma plurk yg masih, masih dimanfaatkan buat nyampah, toh yg baca jg limited and unknown person. negatifnya, i think i've lost contact with some friends, positifnya, sa g se autis dulu (autis gr2 fb, sekarang autisnya karena hal lain)

g kerasa dah hampir 5 bulan disini (tapi dapat uang sakunya, the-only-income-that-i've-got-for-this-last-almost-5-months, baru buat 1bulan), dan sa dah kena penyakit homesick berkali-kali, dah berkali-kali mikir buat pulang (tp cepat2 g dipikir lagi, skit, i dun have any money...), dah berkali-kali mikir knp yah sa mau2nya kesini. pic prof di fb sekarang losari... saking maunya pulang hiks hiks...

sebenarnya dari kmrn2 banyak bgt yg mau dicurhatin... but since i moved here, i lost my "capability" to write.

kykx mending balik to that 10-days-only-life, at least i dun have any spare time to think what i shouldn't think...

disini dah hampir saturasi, i almost yelling, almost dying, almost crying...

untungnya masih banyak yg bisa bikin sa bertahan disini, hari ini... a motivation a.k.a distraction from myself... that's why i love myself a lot wkwkwk...

16.04.10.22.12

I'm so sick....

H I A T U S

a week

Huahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lamanya g nge-blog...

Well, mo cerita kejadian g tau berapa minggu lalu...sebelum basi...

Hmm... seru..
Tapi g se-seru yg sa bayangkan
Maunya outbond-nya itu seharian dengan materi outbond yg lebih mmm.. menantang?!?!?

Hmm... menyiksa
Ternyata g sama sekali. Dapat kamarnya lumayan (malah kamar di pusdiklat enak + nyaman, cuma sayang inet-nya...). Makannya teratur 3 kali sehari malah dapat makan plus-plus a.k.a snack 3x sehari (tp sekarang tinggal 2x).

Hmm... bikin homesick
Well, g juga, soalnya padat kegiatan... Tapi less-net-sick iyah :)) dah stadium 3, ntar lagi koma. Buat donlot LOVE-nya AVA aja sempat stres g dapat koneksi. Udah ke donlot blm sempat dengar hhee...

Hmm... bikin ndut
Berhubung makannya teratur 3x plus makanan plus2 tadi, tp kykx sa g ndut-ndut juga, sudahlah mm g bakat T.T
Berat badan naik sih naik, cuma 500 gram... hah

Hmm... bikin g tenang
Nggak!!! Malah bikin shock sampe muncul pertanyaan "what am I doing doing here???" yg akhirnya mulai terima... bisa2 rencana yg waktu disusun tampak fine2 sajah, bisa berubah jadi g bakal terwujud -sigh-